For that matter, I haven’t been on Facebook nor online in the transport community in a while just to keep myself focused on schoolwork. It’s getting late though and I don’t bother unlinking this from my Facebook anyways.
To get to my point, sheez man, so many weeks gone by and now it’s the very night before the exam. The VERY NIGHT before the ‘O’s. And it’s not going to be a soft start when the very first subject is definitely one of the most important – English. This is especially considering how I basically ‘wasted’ my years on bowling (rather, how I was just bad at it; bowling wasn’t actually a bad experience per se), so unless I hit home run with a perfect 6 for L1R5, it’s gonna be hard to get anywhere near a competitive entry score for JC (at least for me), given my abysmal CCA grade. And chances are, I won’t be banking on Higher Chinese for the L1 (of course, if I get straight As that would make me over the moon, though as far as I want it, I’ve got to be realistic).
It hasn’t been the ideal journey, pretty much like everyone else. I’m still struggling in some aspects of the new syllabus in English that are geared to be literature-style, and I’m still like a deer with headlights when it comes to Humanities. Admittedly I have been really slack at times this year and it’s coming back to bite. Now I’m flustering to juggle every subject which is coming head-on (Annoyingly, HUMANITIES! All the essays that just send the brain into overdrive!) At the very least, I got rid of distractions (at the moment) like transport enthusiasm … … at least to some extent (DTL opening soon :D). Still got some troubles, some uncertainties academically and in life that still fester me (Otherwise why would my reflection for closure to secondary school life disturb my form teacher? But meh, ain’t the time to ruminate over life.)
Thing about exams is, they’re just individual papers used to prove someone’s worth, benchmarking one’s abilities against others simply using the paper (or if the subject is like English, 4 papers, but you get my point). There’s no way it can be a sufficiently conclusive way of evaluating a person’s performance. But I guess that’s just how life goes. It’s unfair, but one is only as worthy as his last effort.
Fact is, reality is brutal, and it’s a difficult fact to learn (at least for me). Bell curves aren’t called bell curves for no reason. Some will be thrilled when they get their results, but there will always be others who feel disappointed. Efforts won’t always pay off, and I guess we really have to deal with it. Not everyone will have aspirations are high-flying as I do – some probably aiming for just a good polytechnic – but whatever it is, I believe it’s the determination to achieve what one wants that counts.
And in the rare event that anyone of my friends taking the ‘O’ Levels is actually reading this post: IT’S HIGH TIME TO GET SOME SLEEP, but also as important, all the best for the exams.